Friday, February 17
colder than cold
I worked at home today. Good thing too since the site lost power for several hours and virtually everyone went home to work. Well, those who weren't being slackers anyway! (Not mentioning any names, but they know who they are.) Day went pretty quick, and now we're looking at a nice, relaxing three day weekend. Of course not working on Monday (President's Day) puts a whole in the paycheck, but the way things keep changing around the office, there might not be a paycheck (or at best a dramatically reduced one) coming in for much longer. So I'm going day by day with a "Stacie party smile" plastered to my face. :D
Got the next two books by Janet Evanovich. I'm sure I'll carve out some time this weekend to start diving into book two - Two For The Dough.
Hope everyone is having a good start to their weekend! Stay warm, stay safe and have fun!!!
Saturday, February 11
solo saturday
But the best part of today was doing nothing but reading... in my pj's. A coworker loaned me her copy of One For The Money by Janet Evanovich. What a great read! I highly recommend it. I sat down at 11:00am figuring I'd start it to see what I thought and literally couldn't put it down. (Well, when my mom called I did... and that killed two hours.) But even while doing laundry I walked around with the book in hand. It's suspense / drama / humor / and sex all wrapped up in one. And since this is the first in a long series with the same main character, you know what I'll be reading next.
As for the rest of my day... well, that was it! I decided months ago that at least one day when Wesley is with his dad (which is every other weekend) would be my day to do whatever I wanted. So, now I'm gonna go grab a hot shower (no smartass comments Stacie!), crack open a brewski, and maybe watch a little of the Olympics.
Cheers!
Thursday, February 9
long day
Still trying to cram in as much training as I can to get out of this admin roll at work. (Thanks Rob, if you're reading! And sorry about being a PITA this afternoon.) The training and workload balance have been a pain. And I kind of came unglued a bit this afternoon at work. Been thinking through it ever since. I think there are multiple issues here...
While I enjoy learning, it's like I've been dealt a second hand of cards in a one hand game. I'm still doing everything I've been doing since I started, and now as I move through the training process, I have an entirely separate set of responsibilities. Imagine working two jobs at the exact same time, all day long. That's what it feels like. Though my managers are working towards "growing" me and moving me through the mill, the rest of the team (except Rob, since he's in on the training) still see me as the go to for all the nitnoid crap. For a group that didn't have dependable support for so long, they surely know how to offload junk they don't want to deal with. It's really hard to be told to "ramp up as fast as you can" by a manager, but the team still sees you in the same roll and haven't been told any different. So, I'm damned if I do, and damned if I don't.
Then there's the issue of ownership. In my opinion, if I'm good enough to do the job, I'm also good enough to be named as the owner. I take responsibility for whatever I do... good, bad or indifferent. I would also like to take credit for the good instead of being sent mixed messages and having the ownership (and success) fall into the lap of someone else.
Don't get me wrong. I really like my job. And I hope to be around there for longer than my contract days. But some days, and some actions, and some mixed messages really make me say "hmmmmmmm???". Maybe I just don't understand the game? Or maybe it's just that the rules have changed? When I first started this job I was told "forget everything you thought you ever knew about corporate culture from other jobs..." Maybe that's the problem. I'm overanalyzing. Hell, I don't know?
What I do know is tomorrow is Friday. My son is away for the weekend and I can do (or not do) anything I want. That alone will put my weary mind at ease tonight and get me through another day of whatever crap may come my way.
Wednesday, February 8
stolen from a friend
Tuesday, February 7
why do people have to be that way?
Background: I am on the procurement team for the annual auction committee at my son's school. One of my duties was to call last years live auction doners and see if they were going to procure the same (or similar) item(s) for this years auction. Everyone I was calling is a parent at the school, so it's not like cold calling... or telemarketing. Or is it?
Last night: Call the first parent. Resounding YES!!! I am feeling good. Next person, have to leave a message. Person after that... wrong number, with a somewhat cranky person. Okay... moving on. Then I get to Cathie. (I'd like to post her last name too, but just in case... I won't.) Anyway, phone rings and the automated voice answers with the obligatory "You have reached a number that does not accept solicitations...." message. Well (I think), I am not a solictor. I am another parent from the same school. Push "1".
Cathie: "Hello" (said in your nastiest voice)
Me: "Hello, this is Lisa from (insert school name here). I am on the procurement team for the auction committee and am calling about the (wonderful whatever it was) that you procured last year. We are hoping that we can count on you to procure the same item this year." (sing-songy, trying to sell something voice)
Cathie: "I am on the decorating team for the auction committee. I have been to every committee meeting and I have no idea who you are, but I am NOT procuring anything this year... that is YOUR job!" (again, very nasty)
Again I tried to say that I was just calling based on the list from last year, and.......... click. She hangs up on me.
I sat there with my mouth open, headset on, pen poised to make notes, and then realized what had just happened. I hung up the phone and called my co-procurement person, told her everything (while it was still fresh in my mind), and didn't make any more calls.
Today: My co-procurement person calls and tells me about a conversation at the school. Cathie and another auction committee person tell her that I called last night and said "if you don't do this, you are letting the kids down". Jesus Christ!!! It's the truth, but it didn't pass out of my mouth! Why can't people tell an accurate account of a conversation? Oh, wait a minute.... I know... because it might incriminate them. She proceeds to tell her about how she's "quitting the committee" blah blah blah. Well wah wah wah!!! WHATEVER!!!! If anyone should be quitting, it's me for having to put up with this bullshit.
Tomorrow: Don't know if I'll go to tomorrow nights meeting or not. Part of me wants to go and bitch slap her. But with having to take Wesley with me... that wouldn't be pretty. The other part of me wants to stay home, drink a beer, and forget about the entire auction.
What will I decide? Tune in tomorrow for Part 2!
Friday, January 20
whew!
Working from home on Monday was a total PITA. But you can read about that in the other post I made. Tuesday and Wednesday were just very long days! Lots to do and not enough time to do it all. I thought Thursday would never end between work and "service hour" commitments I have to Wesley's school. I am on the 25th Gala Auction planning committee and somehow got wrangled into procurement. After a 1.5 hour conference call with the other two procurement ladies, we are still discombobulated. I just don't understand how a school expects this much from parents... but that's another blog entry in itself. By the way, thanks to those of you who've already purchased auction raffle tickets! If you haven't purchased yours yet, email me with your order. You could win a $3,000 Disney cruise voucher! Tickets are just $10 each.
Which brings me to today. As you all know, I began working on contract at Intel in mid-November. It was supposed to be a one year contract. But, we all know what "contract" really means... we'll use you for as long as we want and that's it. Around the middle of December the shake down started. An email went out about another admin taking over my group after the first of the year and I started to panic. Every day, passing through the badge detector, I waited for that awful "beep" that comes when your badge stops working for various reasons... including deactivation. Fortunately, I haven't heard that sound come from my badge yet.
So, the holidays come and go, and still there is no more mention of what (if anything) is happening with me (the contingency worker). I start nosing around, talking to as many people as I can, and trying to make it known that I'm not ready to go yet. In fact... I would feel much better if I was offered a "permanent" position (although we all know that the word "permanent" doesn't really mean much in the grand scheme of things).
My manager (who lives and works from his home in Nashville) is a very, very busy man. But it was time for me to have my time. Since he was coming to our office for a mere 5 hours (to pick up a new laptop) I scheduled a one-on-one with him for this morning. Little did I know (at the time I scheduled it) there was a major re-org going on within our group! Yikes!! But, despite a very tight schedule, I was able to get 30 minutes of face-to-face time with him... and now I can say... whew! So far my contract is safe. There was mention of an attempt at permanency. My sleepless night last night will be filled with many zzzzzzzz's tonight.
Oh, next week doesn't look any better... and so goes the vicous cycle of the ratrace we call life.
Wednesday, January 18
and now for something completely different
Tuesday, January 17
working from home is highly overrated
I started at 6:30am. Why? I was up, didn't have to commute, so why not!? I took my obligatory "stretching" breaks that telecommuters are supposed to take, and at 3:00pm I shut down my laptop. My eyes were burning. My butt was sore from sitting. And my brain was hurting. I accomplished more in one day of working at home than I ever do going to the office. Maybe that's why they like us to work from home? Productivity! Like I said... it's highly overrated. So, today it's back to the office for me. Whew!
Wednesday, January 11
24 days and counting
Today marked the 24th consecutive day of measurable rain in the Seattle area. The record was set in 1953 with 33 days... and it's still coming down. We're all a little soggy, and actually had to cover our eyes when there were a couple of attempted sun breaks this afternoon... in between rain showers (or downpours).
In honor of the rain, my picture of the week is a friend's husband... leaving for work! Aren't you glad you aren't living in Washington?
Tuesday, January 10
rain and dirt a mudslide make
But today, after last night's rain and winds, was a different story.
7:25 am - I left the school parking lot on my way to the Interstate. The traffic report comes on the radio and they announce there is a mudslide in the right lane of Southbound traffic of I-5. No problem (I'm thinking) since I'm on my way Northbound.
7:30 am - On the ramp at the 109 exit I see a parking lot of cars on Northbound 1-5. An ambulance is coming up behind me, so I'm assuming it's just an accident.
7:35 am - I call a friend at work to tell her I'm stuck in traffic only to find out that the stupid radio traffic report is wrong and the mudslide is in Northbound lanes. Traffic is at a crawl (and a pedestrian walking on the shoulder of the Interstate after breaking down is walking just as fast as I'm driving) and I'm getting no where fast. Almost 20 minutes later I make it to exit 111... the very exit I was trying to avoid in the first place.
Needless to say, by the time I wound my way off the Interstate, across town, and down the back roads, I hit the parking lot of my office building at 8:30 am. It was awful!
If the same happens tomorrow, I'm coming back home and working remotely for the day. Ugh!
Friday, January 6
don't miss your chance to...
Tuesday, January 3
shocker... two posts in one day
2 names you go by: Momma and Clarice
2 parts of your heritage: Polish and Irish
2 things that scare you: spiders and death
2 things you are wearing right now: new $12 shoes (yes, I'm a cheapskate) and my new pink shirt (see previous blog entry for the story)
2 of your favorite bands or musical artists (at the moment): Aerosmith (thanks Stac!) and Lonestar
2 favorite songs (at the moment): Jesus Take the Wheel and Don't Want To Close My Eyes
2 things you want in a relationship (other than real love): honesty and trust
2 truths: I will survive and I am a good person
2 physical things that appeal to you (in the opposite sex): bright eyes and straight teeth (yep, same as Stac)
2 of your favorite hobbies: photography and scrapbooking (more shockers, huh?)
2 things you want really badly: for this year to be better than the last two and for Wesley to realize what a prick his father is
2 places you want to go on vacation: Australia and Egypt
2 things you want to do before you die: Winnebago across the United States with my son (yes, this is why we are friends Stacie... so many similarities!) and raise a happy, and healthy son
2 ways that you are stereotypically a dude/chick: major PMS and cry at sappy movies
2 things you are thinking about now: hoping that I become a permanent Intel employee and how out of the loop I am from my online friends-I miss you guys!
2 stores you shop at: Starbucks and Walmart
3 people you would like to see take the quiz? Teri, Becky and Jessica.
thinking pink
During my most recent shopping trip to Walmart, after filling the cart with items for Wesley, I ventured to the clothing department to see if I might find something... anything... And what do I buy? A pink shirt!! Solid pink. Pastel even.
This is DEFINITELY going to be a different year for me.
Monday, January 2
out with the old, and in with the new...
Though I don't make resolutions anymore, I know there are things that I need to do in this new year to make it better than the last. So, I've decided on the following:
- I refuse to let ANYONE take what little self esteem I have left and trample it any longer! I know I am a good person who puts other's needs in front of my own. If it's not enough for some, then maybe it's time for them to reflect on their own actions.
- I refuse to be bullied! I, and only I, am responsible for my actions. I take full responsibility for the good, the bad and the indifferent that I do. When suggestions are given, I will weigh them carefully... but there are no guarantees that I will take them. I will make the decisions that I feel are the best for me.
- I will not be mislead! Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.
- I will continue to work hard to provide for myself and my son! I am worth it, he is worth it, and together we will be stronger.
- I will survive! In my own way, in my own time, I will make my way. It won't be your way... it will be MY way.
With that said, I wish you all a very Happy New Year! Good health. Good fortune. And the best year you can have!!
Wednesday, December 7
it's been too long!
So much has happened in my little world in the past month. So much, in fact, that I didn't think anyone even still read my little blog, so I haven't bothered to say anything. Life has been good, bad and indifferent.
The good - I got a job! It all happened overnight (literally) but I'm working on a one year contract. Despite the rumors, I'm just an Administrative Assistant at this point. No dark and seedy secrets that I've uncovered yet. But, if I do, you'll be the first to know.
The bad - My Aunt passed away on Thanksgiving Day. After suffering from pulmonary fibrosis for four years, she went peacefully in a hospice center. The services were the following Thursday, and sadly enough, it was the first time seeing certain members of the family in years. Why is it that family only gets together for births, graduations and deaths?
The indifferent - Life goes on. Every day is a blur. My parents were here for three weeks, now gone for two, and then back again for two for the holidays. Trying to get on a normal schedule is out until the beginnning of the new year. Wesley is great, adjusting well to mom working and looking forward to Christmas. And me... I'm just taking things one day at a time. The only way to go!
I've missed everyone, and I hope to post more often. But sometimes it takes a friend to poke a stick in my butt to get me going again. Love you Liss!
Thursday, October 27
too little time
So, along with feeling like I'm not making any headway, I've been remiss on blogging. No, I haven't been trying to live up to the name of my blog... I just really can't seem to get everything done anymore.
The Snazzy Scraps November kit is up and selling fast! And I just announced our newest Guest Designer this morning - Kelly Swan. The December kit is coming together nicely. And, we have sponsorships for the months of December and January. WOOHOO!!!
On the "real job" front there is nada to report. Resumes go out, and "Dear John" letters come back. Maybe I've just been out of the 9-5 hustle too long for anyone to even take a chance on me? I certainly hope not!! I need something to pay the mortgage before the end of the spousal maintenance.
Wesley is doing well despite hitting a little girl the other day! Aaaaah!!! According to him, she was "being rude". Being rude? Well, probably knowing this little girl. But not to him. To another little girl. So, he hit her... in the back even. LOL Missed afternoon recess, had to listen to the "why we don't hit" lecture for an hour, had no TV priviledges that night, and was forced to make an "I'm sorry I hit you" card. I sincerely hope this was a one time occurance. Sigh.
Been TOTALLY enjoying the challenges I've been working on the past 8 days at ScrapForums!! What fun!!! It's the most creative I've been in months.
Other than that, it's the same-old-same-old around here. Did you miss my babbling?
Wednesday, October 19
whew! what a week
The November kit is almost ready. Just picking up a couple things this afternoon and then it'll be posted at Snazzy Scraps. Yummy Sweetwater paper!
Oh, and I was tagged last week by my little Sis, so I've got to get that done and posted too.
But for now, I'm off to the shower.
Monday, October 3
just because my sister asked

I had really wanted to attend Sandie's Tag Book Make N Take, but wasn't able to. So, I took note of the instructions and spent some time this afternoon making one with items from the Snazzy Scraps October monthly kit.

All items used are from the kit, except:
Eyelet (in small chipboard tag)
Tags
Gingham ribbon
like mother, like son

